I just found out I didn,t turn up for my sign out day this friday and it was very important that I showed up and it was a big mistake along with I think I am not going to past this year. It,s just getting wrost and wrost this year...I am failing soo badly and it,s because I am being lazy and no I do all my home works and hand them on time and I also do study. But I am failing I don,t think I am going to past this year and I am just scared so now I spend these holidays just constantly eating,playing, and wrost of all sleeping in because I day up to 5 am in the morning worrying about whats going to happen to me. I am scared soo badly and I know if I fail I am going to taken out from the school and maybe to be able to get the I want and I begin to be doubtful about my self like I ask to my self "Am I really that good enough at drawing to be called an artist?" then I thought over and over again I keep thinking it,s impossible for me and I am never going to suceed, I am not good enough at drawing, I lack of soo many skills considering sprisingly I am one who struggels to draw the most in my art class...I don,t desrve to be in extention...thats why I got pulled out and I am failling more and more. I don,t know my self any more...I have become a used up pencill...I am small....and my life is going to be small...things aren,t looking good for me....and I am just soo scared...